My Life in Pack

I was packed off to faraway for sorrow
But I have packed up my stuff
It was not a pack of times nor memories
It was you packed with joy, laugh, firework, and else
Things which could never be packed out even by heartbreak
Things which could never be packed in even by despair

Azmi, June 2019
Written on July 2018

Please Save Me From My Own Mind #6

You could walk away from people who hurt you or make you sick and tired
And there would always be the time you blame yourself for let them in
or blame them for being so rude
or blame the life for the path you both share
But, darling, world works that way
It hits you hard only to slap you harder when you get up
Imagine everything seems so easy, everyone greets warm, everywhere looks nice,
How do you learn the scars?
How do you know which one is good, better, or best?
How do you figure out who you are?

Azmi, May 2019
Written on December 2018

Please Save Me From My Own Mind #2

Someday people will ask you about how you keep alive in one percent battery
Then you will say to them that life charges yourself
You will say you can bring out your aptitude, become brave and set your voice louder for your liking,
and show your maximal brightness as your ability at the same time
Because life charges you while you try to pass it through
Because life doesn't only hurt you badly but also give you all the words, touches, chances, people, and gifts you deserve
And that's all enough to take you back to one hundred percents
Someday people will ask you and you will reply exactly like that
So please keep going, you are almost there

Azmi, May 2019

Please Save Me From My Own Mind #1

Having that pretty brain is always in my bucket list

The one people keep talking about because it is so much full of books, tales, news, and everything

So is having good taste in music

Going to concert and singing along with everyone

Plus for playing any instruments

It would be really nice to dress up and put make-up on

Flawless in any appearances, confidence as the key

It would be really nice to go place to place, too

Challenge ourselves to learn new things, try new foods, or greet new people

Pursue directional dreams

I do adore the cheerful and kind person people can lean on

The one who makes time for other and accompanies through bad time

Also the faithful yet open-minded person who sees life in positive way and finds magic in anything

People who get nightmares but wake up happily have my respect

They are surrounded by family and friends

Struggling in silence

People who believe in themselves have it either

They enjoy life with eyes close, take steps without any feet, thankful for whatever it takes, and realize that being themselves is more than enough

I don't want to call any names since I write this because I do envy you all

I just want you to know that you may feel invisible but without you realize, people may have their eyes on you and pray for your good

So please keep going

You are blessing I wish I were

Even anyone wishes they were

Azmi, April 2019

I Don't Want Goodbye

It's gonna hurt when you leave

It would be scar for ever

So instead of telling you are the one

I would rather to convince you are the one

Because every time I think I drown

I land back to your shore

I end up loving you more

Azmi, Maret 2019