Yey! Daddy is already home. And Mom does what she always does. And my baby sister is busy with the college. And my baby brother goes to school again. And my younger baby brother goes back to dorm. And me is sitting on a couch way far from them and missing them. The reason I am being where I am right now is them, I told you I have people to take care of, remember? That's them! I wish this would mean something but I only know about it on couple days later. I'll tell you even at my worst. We'll see.
By the way, another heartbreaking moment. I told Mom days ago about something I kept from her for so long. At midnight. It started with the feeling I couldn't hide it any longer and I cried. Then I walked myself down stair to tell her but she saw me when I was on stair. I didn't know she was awake because she never did. She came to hug me, walked me back to my room, and asked me why. So, I told her. While crying. While being hugged around her arm. And she forgave me. Told me that was nothing. Told me that was fault I would never do again. Told me that she loves me all the way. Me? I cried way harder because her words was beyond my expectation.
I knew it would hurt me but I didn't expect it would be so hurting like this. Keeping things from Mom is a huge burden I should not do. It haunts me every times and it still leaves major regret. But Mom is a magical creature. She is always be and will always be. God is way too kind to give me her. God is way too kind.
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