I Wish I Win

Never have a chance to give you more than a greeting
Because time is confusing and your room is empty

After years apart and all the repeated running
Winning yours is finish line I bury deep

Azmi, April 2020

Pathetic

You may take the bathroom for yourself

I will let you let the water runs dry

as you tear out a name and only a name

Even the door will be closed and locked

I know you sit down with clothes on there

I see it from your poetry/poetry/poetry/poetry

and thousand of your script/script/script/script

which you hide in cloud and stack of papers

which the name will never notice but me

Azmi, April 2020

366 Days of Me #day 93

I have been doing quarantine, just like everybody else, for these past three weeks. I think being home doesn't make me do something better than before. I do my job (joining the online learning of course, how can I pass this semester without it?!), spend my whole day with Aunty (random talk to deep talk for sure), take free online course with Aunty (we study together, literally, and she looks like a friend this is cool), call my dear friends from junior high school, sew bed sheets, purchase e-books, and text friends of mine randomly (only to say hi, to remind them things such as doing quarantine, even to burn longing).

Have I ever mention that Aunty is a nice mother? (re: Mom is the best and no one would beat her position) But Aunty is nice. Despite of the fact that she is fragile and somehow reminds me of myself (about how hard she is to herself or crying over things), she listens to me and takes a good care of me. She asks me to drink ginger and tea every day, forces me to do my job every time I want to help her, and keeps telling me to have my breakfast, lunch, and dinner on time. She is just nice and being here with her is a nice thing to do (although I really want to be home, REALLY). When semester is done and everything is better, I will buy any ticket to come home!

How's your quarantine doing? Whatever you do, please note that the world has been being good to us. In return, we have to take care of it for the rest of our life. When this is all over, I wish we all do our best to become a better person, better version of ourselves. So, whoever you are reading this, I wish you good health!